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Friday, July 28, 2006

Teen angst poetry

I'm a connoisseur of high school yearbook poetry - you know, the kind that gets stuck in between the volleyball team photo and the prom candids to fill blank space. I love the forced rhymes, the narcissism, the anguished introspection, the naive world-view and the why-me nihilism. It's a powerful reminder of why lowering the voting age to 16 is such a bad idea. Here's a great example from a high school in Toronto:

With shields raised, defences up
I begin the walk of life.
No cowardice shall lurk in me
Arrogance sparks my stife [sic].

With shields up, defences down
I feel that I'm worth more.
More than nothing ever was
I cannot be ignored.

With shields down, defences gone
I search for who I am.
What I really want from life
With no answers I am damned.

Without a shield, without defence
I struggle from within.
For life is a mere farce
This reality is quite grim.

Without pretence, without deceit
I probe my inner soul.
This walk of life is now complete.
For within and without I am ...


1 comment:

Spitfire said...

Yeah, I went through my old poems the other day and come upon this one. I laugh at my naivity, and find it hard to believe I wrote this only 6 years ago.


My heart is now black.
No more will it be,
Tender and affectionate,
Like it once was.
Since the day you said,
You wanted no more of me,
Gut wrenching sobs
Seep and escape
Through my body.

No more will I feel
The profound feeling of love
That has now left my soul
And left mud prints.
“I will love you forever”
That’s what you said.
“I will love you to the very end”
All were lies
A joke,
A sick, disturbing joke.
That I can’t comprehend.
What is my purpose in life now?
Since you are not in it
God, can you answer that?
My melancholy and gloomy days
Get longer now,
Without you.
Will you come back
And free my soul
From this downward spiral?
I’m trying to grasp on to something
To prevent me from falling
But they snap like twigs

No more will my heart leap
When I think if you.
My mind and soul
Are now drenched
With feelings of anguish
Pouring out endlessly
Will it ever stop?

All I seek for is a lid
To stop all of this from
Coming out.
Gotta keep my feelings hidden
So I can hold my head up high
Down these crowded halls

I smile as though all is okay
When inside I’m falling apart.
The tears still fall
The pain is still there and
At this point
I’m not sure if
The pain will ever stop
My heart hurts right now
But there will still be
A place for you there if you want

I miss you.
I miss having your
Strong arms around me
Making me feel safe.
Every time I turn on the radio
All the songs remind me of you
I still weep at night
Clutching my teddy bear
And your shirt

I can’t handle it
Don’t make me throw myself
Into that dark tunnel again please.
I didn’t like that tunnel
Alcohol and drugs
To ease through the pain of hurt
From family, friends and loves.

Saw the light
At the end of the tunnel
But it’s getting dark again
Someone pass me a flashlight
Before it’s too late!
I didn’t know ‘eternally’
Was only two months.